Hazy Days

First up, HAPPY BIRTHDAY ASHLYNN BABY! A toast to many more to come. I love you. You'll do great things one day.
The haze has struck Singapore. Everywhere is grey and dismal. I hope it doesn't pour, because then it would be grey, WET and dismal.
I feel like I am stuck in the gutter, stuck in some rut of some sort. I feel like running to some faraway land. Just me, my bikini, my sundress, a beach mat, plenty of books and tons of quiet contemplation.
Tired of being bohemian, or trying to be. I will be 20 in a month's time. Let's try not to go mad before my birthday. I will buy a call card and I will call you and we will talk of beautiful things.

"Why don't you just tell him?"
She stares at the reflections bouncing off the rim of her cold diet coke can.
"What is the point. Seriously. What is the point."
She gets up and walks off, tired of his tirade.

Milk them all I say.

I Remember

Baby I want you but I don't know what to say
I see you everyday when you come around my way
I want you to know that I'm in love with you
So baby come on come on and tell me how you feel
Tell Me How You Feel - Joy Enriquez

I remember a time when I used to bounce around with a borrowed MD running little recollections in my head. I remember it with a wistful, melancholic fondness. I am stuck in a vacuum of in-betweens, mostly just bidding my time.
My life has stagnated.

By The Wayside



Its been an eventful week. Went for an interview at Mediaedge:cia for the job of a Media buyer for their international brands. Really crossing my fingers on this one, and I do hope I get the job. It seems like a nice learning environment, plus I wouldn't be so lonely since Meifen's working there too. We'll see how it goes then.
Like about a myriad of things happened over the week, I feel like a small shrub growing along the highway, with speeding cars rocking my quiet.

I was awaken from my sleep one night to the sound of my mobile ringing incessantly only to find out that it was someone whom I haven't spoken to in months. Its fantastic talking to him and its perhaps the only consolation I have for the week.

Its a sunday and I have been sleeping in and snoozing, extremely piggish of me, but I don't know why I've been feeling so drained of late. Been counting down the days to payday, extra money's always good. Its a really humid day today and I should be lounging by the pool but I'm too lazy to get my ass down there.

Graduation is happening next week, I wonder who will be there...hmmm. Been having extremely strange, unsettling dreams. Sigh.

Slipping In and Out of Denial

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

Some people search for a fountain
Promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love them

Hand me a world on a silver platter
And what good would it be?
No one to share, no one who truly cares for me

Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you

If I ain't got you with me baby
Nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby
If I Aint Got You - Alicia Keys

I need the sun and the pool.

Its Friday Night

I have to blog about Weds when we went to see Gene and Audra (dunno if spelt it right) right, whent they were on their way to Penang. we headed to smoke Shisha which is a funny-cool experience and it was get to know Mel's sister day. I found out that Mel's sister's name is Amy. How embarrassing. Ack.

Undesireable company called today, which got me very irritated for like about half an hour and then it became very funny. My emotions are so impulsive, hurhur....O well.

Its a Friday and I am weighing night time options and wot to do when I knockoff...I just cleared a load of work but knowing the company, there will probably be more work piled up in like about a minute. My manager's out of the office so that's nice, hehe... :-) -twiddles thumbs-

Knock Knock Knocking on Heaven's Door.

I couldn't sleep last night then I something happened but I snapped out of it in time. Actually I slept early, like about 11 plus at night and I woke up before 7am. I am very proud that today is the first time I took the bus to work. And I was actually early! Like 10 mins early. Fuck the cabs, its the train and bus all the way now. I think I have been eating too much of late. It feels like I eat a lot. How horrid, tsk. Met up with the girls on Monday, it was real nice. Haven't seen ma luvlies in some time. It was raining cats and dogs during lunch so we decided to buy back and watch the documentary "Super Size Me", I think we are going to release it soon. Its a really fab documentary and it'll definitely change the way you look at Mackers. It was raining so bad that my pants and denim jacket got soaked. Am waiting for my jacket to dry, the pants are fine now.
Spent the whole of last night contemplating about things, which I don't think I have entirely sorted out. The best thing to do is to stay away sometimes. Hmm...

My Fingers Are Numb
Yes they are. From copying and pasting and doing too many excel sheets and campaign evaluations. Ugh. But its all good. I finished it already, thank god.
To Josh, just because I know you read my blog but keep silent. Thank you so much for being there. You perk up my day. :-)
I am heading to town again later to pick up my tops and buy some smoked salmon and wholemeal bread. I have a fantastic sandwich dinner plan that I intend to execute with much precision. YAY. I can't wait make good food, tomatoes and alfafa sprouts. Yum. I think I should post some pictures up here, its getting a little too text heavy and all I talk about are day-to-day mundane rantings. Price to pay for not feeling emo & depressed so much anymore. Being depressed is good. You lose weight, hurhur. I hope I am not starting to put on weight any time soon. I would stab myself if I did, but then again as my friends can testify, I am too much of a scaredy-cat to do anything like that. Peace out.

Rainy Days and Mondays...

Heh. Its another day in the office. Its kind of chilly since it rained earlier in the morning, which is good so tt hopefully it wouldn't be so humid later when I hit town. I don't know whether I should buy both of the tops that I reserved. Hopefully, I'll be able to chill with the girls later. Time is flying today, its only 1 more hour till lunctime. YAYness. Got my official email address and outlook stuffies today, and with that, more tasks have been thrown to me...its all good. Been trying to liase with some other people from other organizations to design some promos...Nuff about work. Its the GSS, shopping galore, I can't wait till I get my pay which is prolly like about a billion years later. Am preying on another job after this stint. If I do get it, I might not go abroad next feb, perhaps a year later or something, cool.
Been feeling a little bit emo of late, esp after going to my sec sch bbq. It seems like everyone has got jobs and are moving on to another stage in life. I've come to realise that there will always be people who will hold a very dear place in my heart.
I feel like whipping up some food in the kitchen this week. Still got some olives and bacon in my fridge, loads of bacon actually. That's the horrid bit when I do grocery shopping, I tend to get too excited and buy too much of the same thing. Maybe an Aglio Olio Bacon or something, or a salad with grilled bacon...I have to start eating healthily...been having weird hunger pangs of late. Like I have been constantly craving for ice cream and I've been eating ice cream quite a lot but the dumb bit is that when I buy the ice cream, I take like 5 bites and my craving goes away and I trash it, its happened like about 4 times this week. Tsk. I hope I get my cash flowing in soon, my resources in the bank is depleting and a steady rate. Ack.